I am the worst at worrying. I worry about everything. I know that is something I really need to work on. I am a perfectionist so when I see that things might not work out “perfectly”, I get very anxious and often can’t see past the negatives. I know it’s a bit early for New Year’s resolutions but that is going to be my top resolution.
I have been so blessed. I have NOTHING to ever complain about. Absolutely nothing. Yet I still fret about everything.
The recent financial crisis is especially hard on worriers like me. Are the markets up or down, will there be any money left for older Americans like my parents who will be cashing out within the next few years, will anyone I know be affected by losing their jobs, will we be able to sell the houses we put on the market once we get married, etc… Josh has said that we will never see another thing like this in our lifetime. And when you watch the news, they make you feel like we’ll all be growing food out of our own gardens to survive. But we are commanded not to worry.
Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? Matthew 6:26
I also keep finding myself being presented with a situation and automatically wishing it could be different instead of being thankful.
For example, I am getting married on New Year’s Eve. Josh’s house is a bit bigger than mine so I will be moving into his place in January. A few years ago, Josh signed a contract for a new house in Cool Springs, which won’t be ready until April. So we’ll be moving everything in January, then again just 3 months later. So I immediately think how inconvenient it will be to have to move everything twice.
I hate that about me. Why don’t I immediately thank God for the homes he has blessed us with, that I wake up every day with no fear of losing my home, that I am physically able to pack up and move boxes, that I get in a warm, cozy bed each night, that I am moving twice to live with the most wonderful man in the world, etc…?
So since I am going to have a lot going on this New Year’s Eve, I am going to make my resolution now! I know it won’t happen overnight, but I am going to make a conscious effort to be content and think positively no matter the circumstance.
So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness. Colossians 2:6-7
So here’s my list. I decided to come up with something I am thankful for by using each letter of the alphabet. It was kinda fun…try it and come up with your own list!
I am thankful for…
Aunt…my own Aunt Mary and that I am an aunt to 4 wonderful kiddos
Bridesmaids…all 10 of them!
Casinos…and they have them in San Juan where we are honeymooning!
Dave Ramsey and for being Debt free!
Examples…those my parents have set for me
God…who is so patient with me
Health…mine and my families
In-laws…I love my future in-laws!
Josh…my best friend
Lori…who is coming home from Japan for my wedding, and who I get to visit in Japan this spring
New Year’s Eve…my future anniversary date!
Old car…that after 10 years, still gets me from point A to point B (knocking on wood now)
Pets…my dog-child Scarlett who has a been a great friend for the past 8 years
Quarterbacks…yay Kerry Collins!
Republicans…who have a majority in both houses of the TN General Assembly
Soldiers…who will not be eating Thanksgiving dinner with their families
TV…especially reality TV
Vacations…next up San Juan Puerto Rico!
XLIII…Superbowl 43…Go Titans!
Yellow blanket…that I’ve slept with for the past 29 years
Zac Efron…HA! JUST KIDDING. I know nothing about that kid. I just hear his name and need a Z to wrap this up! OK, how about zebras!