Monday, February 21, 2011
Babies and Blackberries
While I don't think this is abnormal for a new mom, I now realize that blessings such as a new baby can easily become viewed as an "acceptable" distraction...yet it still interferes with my relationship with God. And I don't think God intended to bless me with Mary Harper just to watch me lose focus on Him. I hate to admit I stopped "seeking Ye first" the second I was blessed with Mary Harper!
I also became consumed with fear after having Mary Harper. I literally didn't put her down for over 24 hours when we first brought her home because I was afraid she would stop breathing! I know that probably sounds insane but it's true! If my mom had not come to stay with us, she may still be sleeping in my arms at night! And I would say the biggest adjustment for me becoming a parent is the realization I will now worry about her for the rest of my life! And I think if my focus was on God, those types of irrational fears would subside...some. :)
I would appreciate your prayers as I try to refocus my life post-baby and post-Blackberry!
Posted by Mary-Kate at 1:55 AM